[Bible Question] I know my time is about to run out. I am 70 years old. I would like to know the truth, but I think I already do. My life has been pure hell from the day I was born as my dad cursed me constantly. People have told me though the years I have a black cloud hanging over my head. I be married 4 times and all have been pure hell after a while, as it is with this one as she drinks day and night and it is constant hell living with her. I have been smoking for over 50 years and have tried every thing there is to stop and now I have a tumor on my tongue and was told to quit be doctors. I have had the hiccups day and night for over 5 years been to 35 doctors and they do not know why. I also have A.D.D. I have tried praying to God, fasting, being still, had people pray for me, used prayer cloths, beat my chest, went to a guy who was a deliverance minister, but never help us, I gave Him my life and would do anything in my power to serve Him. And would do anything, if I understood what to do. If I knew and had been taught this, I would have lived my life differently for sure! As I have found out to late that there is only one power, had I been born to different parents my life might have been different. I do not want to be lost forever; just thinking about it makes me cry. All I do day and night is think about him and things get worst every day….It says in Romans that it not of him who wills or runs it who God shows mercy. I believe I am a vessel of destructing! It says “life and death are in the power of the tongue and I am damming myself for telling the truth! And 4 women can\’t be wrong and all those others can\’t be either, including my dad as he never curse my brother and sister like he did me. They all say I am not fit for the dung pile. Jesus said there would be gnashing of teeth and mine are worn out from it. He also said it would be better than some were not born, and I wish I wasn’t. It is hard to love a God who would do all this to me for no reason, at least Job knew God, I do not,but I am no one to question Him. I guess it would no make any difference what I do as far as He is concerned, if I quit taking my medicines or whatever, I will do anything to escape this place if I could….Why am I not good and will be destroyed? or is there any hope ?…Please do not think I am feeling sorry for myself as I don’t and I would die right now if I knew I was not lost…will He remember me in the Resurrection? The old saying everyone want to go to heaven but no one wants to die, well I do….I need these demons cast out of me!
[Bible Answer] In the Old Testament there is a character named Manasseh. He was the son of a godly man, Hezekiah. Even though he had the unique and exceptional opportunity to do great things for God, he instead did great things for the devil! He turned out to be one of the most evil people in the Bible! Rather than me cite what his miserable life was like, take the time and read it for yourself in 2 Chronicles 33:1-10. Read on down to verse 20 too, which shows what occurred that led him to salvation (and peace with God). You are not like Mannasseh. There was hope for him and there surely is hope for you, but only in God. Also, to have God you must have Jesus. You need to make it personal. He must be your own personal Lord and Savior even though he died for everyone’s sins. You need to cry out humbly and sincerely to God for mercy and ask God to forgive you of your sins. Commit yourself to Jesus as you turn from your sins. You must turn away from wickedness to serve the Lord. True salvation will bring rest for your soul (Mt. 11:28,29) and freedom from your sin addictions (Romans 6:22).
Make your life count for God! People around you are in the greatest danger (hell), yet unaware of their spiritual needs. You can help them much, IF you get forgiven first. Remember how to prepare for death.
BTW, I once heard that if you touch the back of your throat with the round underside of a spoon it will stop hiccups. It is worth a try.
There is hope for YOU! 1 Cor. 6:9-11. God bless you.
